stronger
Wednesday, August 17, 2016 @ 6:07 PM | 0 notes

I'm just so confused and tired and sick of everyone else.
But the problem is, I need human company.
There's nothing wrong with my school life work or family and I'm perfectly fine with being happy on my own. I can be strong on my own.
But some days I just don't want to be alone.
Some days I just don't want to be strong for myself.
I want someone to be strong for me.
So that I can be strong for others.
Maybe right now I'm worried that there's no one for me, so how can I be strong for others?
I don't want to tear myself down and have nothing left.
It sounds selfish but its true.
I want to save myself first so I can save others.
People who need someone, who can't find inner strength.
If I wreck myself for them, I might save them, but the number of wrecked people remains the same.
And that's just kinda stupid.

Yes I'm kinda socially awkward now and
yes I know I have to break through it as well but
Can't you see that's what I'm trying to do
But I don't know what I'm doing wrong
Am I coming on too strong
Or is there something wrong with my face
Or the way I'm doing something
Is it something else

I'm always dancing with older folks
And there's nothing wrong with that
But when it comes to people my age
Everyone just shies away
Tries to talk
But eventually they turn away
And talk to someone
More interesting
More vocal
More opinionated

But that's not true
I'm interesting too
I'm vocal too
I'm have opinions too
I'm sure I've got it in me

But where are you
Friend
Who has the patience to wait for me
To be ready
For me
To open up

Because when I trust you and love you

I will give you a piece of my soul